And so it was, that the terribly enjoyable period of hedonism and excessive fun has ended, and the last day of freedom has come.
In fact, the last day of freedom for me is about to come to an end.
And so begins a brand new phase of my life.
There will be so many new experiences that I can’t even begin to imagine what life in the next two years is going to be like.
It’s like even though you’re always excited about a new school, or a new class, you kinda always know what it’s sorta going to be like.
It’s what we’ve spent our whole lives doing: study, rest, study.
No matter the location, the company, the exam, it’s all basically the same.
But suddenly, I’m going to this whole new other world.
It’s like plugging into a whole new RPG, with brand new rules.
But I’m hoping that the whole RPG format has fundamental similarities, and the insights I have gleaned, the skills I have learned from the School-RPG, will serve me well in the NS-RPG.
I’m quite excited actually; the thought of training to become physically stronger resonates with my anime and wu xia and Dune interests. Always always, the protagonist has to undergo some period of intensive training when he (haha seemingly always a he) brushes with death and suddenly becomes stronger.
I guess I’ve always known this day would come.
And I hope my mind is sufficiently prepared.
I’m just glad that I can leave on a happy note with everyone I care about.
Farewell, my friends.
I will not do fine.
I will do great.
June 27, 2009 at 6:42 am |
Yes, you will. It’s like preparing a new plan, recipe, approach to life–to sustain you. As long as you are able to reflect and know the nature of your true self.
In life, I see many people labor hard to achieve their goals and often, what they do achieve can be so easily overlooked (esp. in their weak or bad moments)–until perhaps, there is a death of some kind: Keeping in mind that there’s always a significant amount of pain & suffering before a birth of some kind.
Focusing on the whole picture…
It’s not always easy to protect yourself emotionally until you reach that point–of a rebirth; many people appear to use you for whatever reason and your bright shining spirit can easily go unnoticed. You can get so physically exhausted due to those external pressures … (it actually is killing you, day by day). Many times, I find myself storing up silent plans … preserving ideas–energy to access later…’cause I know that I will most definitely need them when facing tough decisions to make–sometimes, life-altering…
All in all, the solution to all our problems lie within…I really believe that; but, sometimes, it is hidden away, made almost inaccessible under those many layers (like a veil of illusion). Your “Last Day of Freedom” is a very beautifully written piece when embarking on a new journey~
Wishing you all the best on your adventure,
Sonya Rose